I am not well - a video by Claudia Boleyn
TW: mental health, mental illness, suicide, depression, anxiety, GAD, BPD, suicidal ideation, self harm.
This video was incredibly difficult for me to make. I feel nervous about posting it, and right up until the last moment I have considered deleting it. It’s the most honest I think I’ve ever been in a video, and I am scared about what will come of it.
I’m the sort of person that puts on a front to pretty much everyone, even my family, so being this honest is tough. I feel quite pathetic and sort of hate myself for even making and posting this, but beyond that I know that this might help other people, so I’m going to be brave.
I’d appreciate it if you could share this video, because even if you aren’t mentally ill, a friend or follower might be, and it’s so important to know you are not alone. When I thought I was alone in this I tried to kill myself. That’s how bad it feels. So please please please share this if you can, and if you can’t do that, then please be kind to your friends that are struggling with mental health issues. Let them know that you care.
I hope that people won’t see me differently after this, but if they do, then I suppose that’s okay. You only really see the bubbly/manic/sarcastic side of me on here and I’ve never shown anyone the lows before.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. Please show compassion to people who suffer with mental health issues.
Note: I was inspired to do this by the wonderful Rikki Poynter, a fellow blogger and YouTuber. Thank you for your courage Rikki. xxx
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